Almost time

So I got one of the pregnancy books back from a friend with the main premise being "attachment parenting." I'm not so sure I necessarily agree with this form of parenting but it does have some helpful tidbits in it. I would rather go on instinct and spiritual guidance. I really only borrowed the book to see what I should pack and to read up on things I thought I'd made my mind up about, but have since changed.

We are at I think a month and a half to go and not even that if he comes early which I think he will. Wishful thinking maybe, I prefer to call it being optimistic! I'm excited about the upcoming showers and seeing all the new stuff. The same way I get excited about going through a box of hand-me-downs! I should have read this book ahead of time on buying clothes for baby. I went through the clothes we have and noticed we had very few 0-3 month and 3-6 month outfits so I told the church to put that on our list for the shower. Now that we find out our baby is already a big guy I'm thinking he won't be wearing them too long if at all. LOL! I'm not taking the tags off everything.

I am looking forward to a non-rainy day to get all of the nursery stuff in the house and set up. I at least want the nursery set up and everything put away before the time slips us by.
Our bedding has been picked out for some time, but then I go to Target and find a different one I really like and it's way cheaper. At least I know where I'll be going if we don't happen to get the bedding set I registered for. :)

I think I'm most excited to see Dwayne holding his little guy for the first time. Actually I'm excited about all the first times to come. We've had so many already. The first picture that showed only a peanut like shape which I found I did not like calling him peanut and we then went with "Cinnabun". The first movement and every one since then. :) Those I look forward to the most are seeing him for the first time taking that first breath of air. I look forward to looking into his eyes for the very first time and seeing them looking back! I know that babies only see so far and amazingly that length is from the normal breast feeding position. Another amazing detail from God. I look forward to comparing baby pictures from Dwayne and I and seeing what features McKinley has of both of us. Will he be a good combination of the two of us or will he look more like the other? I look forward to seeing the first grip of McKinley's tiny fingers wrapping around Dwayne's big fingers and pray even now I have a camera ready for that very moment. I am looking forward to so many things. I've laid awake a couple of nights wondering only to fall asleep knowing that God has a plan for McKinley and that whenever he comes, however he comes, God knows where he is going and crafted him to be just that way. *sighs happily* He's almost here.

I wonder if God has those exact same feelings when a new life is coming into the world or a lost sheep coming to Him? Their first breath of Him, the first time they see Him, the first time they grip His hand and let Him lead them down that walk? I think he has even more feeling than a mother for her child. His masterpieces, His creations, His imagination, His child. He planned out every detail of each one of us. He made us each unique. He's been patient with us. He is more forgiving that we could ever be. He loves us just the way we are. I am thankful He crafted me and continues to work on me. I am thankful He is creating in me another masterpiece and I look forward to seeing, holding, touching, kissing and cherishing this masterpiece as He does me.